No News is ....just that....NO NEWS!
I'm tired. Yup, I'm emotionally spent.
The last month has been one of many ups and downs.
Our old girl (the dog) was diagnosed as terminal and she's still kicking around and pooping where ever she has to....even in my dining room, YUCK! Makes me crazy but I totally understand husbands feelings on it and for now we will let her live out these final days in peace.
My backyard masterpiece has not yet begun! Delay after delay are making me fricking crazy! The first day the crew was to show up...nothing! Why you ask (me too!) Well apparently water skiing isn't the safe and fun sport that we might think it is and the lead carpenter broke his foot and is out of commission for 6 weeks or so. No problem, I say, find another carpenter! Another carpenter was found and now further delay's have cropped up...first, the project coordinator forgot to call the utility companies to have line searches done...you know the whole call before you dig thing....it's important. Well that took a further 3 days because everyone and their grandmother is doing construction right now and they are super busy! So now that is complete and the post holes are supposed to go in today...
I officially hate the Weather Guy! That's right that really attractive face on tv that tells me it's gonna rain today (thunderstorms in fact) and what do you wanna bet my holes ain't gonna be dug today! Tomorrow it's supposed to be nice and the posts could be done then...but Friday it's gonna rain again!
AAHHHHHHHHHH!
My hot tub is in! Good news right! Great news in fact, except that I don't have a deck to put it on and all these delays mean that the tub is not being delivered until Friday the 20th!
All of this is making things tense at home! Husband is saying things that he doesn't mean just because he's frustrated. This in turn makes me even more anxious about everything and as I said...I just can't take much more. I hate that I drive home after work at night and use that time to cry! I'm not generally a crybaby but I don't think there has been a dry drive home in two weeks. It's almost like I can't stand to face what waits for me next at home!
Last weekend we played in what was to be the chance to win my Vegas vacation for this year. That's right, our 8 ball team was playing in the regionals for the grand prize, the all expenses paid trip to Vegas...we failed miserably! I played and lost and then two of my team mates followed me and did the same thing. Within 4 hours all the work that we had put in over the year was gone...yup, just like that! I cried that night and I'm still actually bitter about it.
This weekend the Girls 9 ball team enters into the same competition for the same prize and I can assure you.....we will be playing to achieve a much different outcome! There will be no sad tears dammit!!! Only tears of joy!
Okay, the last thing that's been causing me grief is the whole booby issue... I went for the mammogram and ultrasound as scheduled. That is not supposed to be a comfortable experience and trust me it met expectations. Nothing like flattening the girls and seeing what's up! The ultra sound should have been a relatively non-event except that the little bimbo technician taking care of it couldn't keep her mouth shut and half way through decided that she would ask me a question that would send me into hysterics.... what could she possibly ask that would make you hysterical you ask?? Are you ready? ....
" So, are you here just checking to see if your cancer has spread further?"
Yup....this sent me into tears and her into apology mode. Anyway, my doctor says she had no business saying a thing! She's a technician that knows nothing and is not trained to diagnose. My Doctor was reporting her and although I feel bad that she may lose her job....well I feel bad for anyone that may have to suffer that kind of stupid question.
I don't have the results from my tests yet. Tomorrow morning I go to see my Doctor and we'll see what's going on. This is another thing that is making me crazy and another reason that I cry each night. The uncertainty that comes with all of this is very stressful, mix it in with everything else and I've decided that I need a planner. Kind of like a Wedding Planner...you know they come in, they see what you have to accomplish and they make it happen. My planner would be a "Fix my Life Planner".
Anyone want the job? Let me know and I'll send you the job description.
Keep Smiling Friends....cause it will make me feel better if at least someone is!
The last month has been one of many ups and downs.
Our old girl (the dog) was diagnosed as terminal and she's still kicking around and pooping where ever she has to....even in my dining room, YUCK! Makes me crazy but I totally understand husbands feelings on it and for now we will let her live out these final days in peace.
My backyard masterpiece has not yet begun! Delay after delay are making me fricking crazy! The first day the crew was to show up...nothing! Why you ask (me too!) Well apparently water skiing isn't the safe and fun sport that we might think it is and the lead carpenter broke his foot and is out of commission for 6 weeks or so. No problem, I say, find another carpenter! Another carpenter was found and now further delay's have cropped up...first, the project coordinator forgot to call the utility companies to have line searches done...you know the whole call before you dig thing....it's important. Well that took a further 3 days because everyone and their grandmother is doing construction right now and they are super busy! So now that is complete and the post holes are supposed to go in today...
I officially hate the Weather Guy! That's right that really attractive face on tv that tells me it's gonna rain today (thunderstorms in fact) and what do you wanna bet my holes ain't gonna be dug today! Tomorrow it's supposed to be nice and the posts could be done then...but Friday it's gonna rain again!
AAHHHHHHHHHH!
My hot tub is in! Good news right! Great news in fact, except that I don't have a deck to put it on and all these delays mean that the tub is not being delivered until Friday the 20th!
All of this is making things tense at home! Husband is saying things that he doesn't mean just because he's frustrated. This in turn makes me even more anxious about everything and as I said...I just can't take much more. I hate that I drive home after work at night and use that time to cry! I'm not generally a crybaby but I don't think there has been a dry drive home in two weeks. It's almost like I can't stand to face what waits for me next at home!
Last weekend we played in what was to be the chance to win my Vegas vacation for this year. That's right, our 8 ball team was playing in the regionals for the grand prize, the all expenses paid trip to Vegas...we failed miserably! I played and lost and then two of my team mates followed me and did the same thing. Within 4 hours all the work that we had put in over the year was gone...yup, just like that! I cried that night and I'm still actually bitter about it.
This weekend the Girls 9 ball team enters into the same competition for the same prize and I can assure you.....we will be playing to achieve a much different outcome! There will be no sad tears dammit!!! Only tears of joy!
Okay, the last thing that's been causing me grief is the whole booby issue... I went for the mammogram and ultrasound as scheduled. That is not supposed to be a comfortable experience and trust me it met expectations. Nothing like flattening the girls and seeing what's up! The ultra sound should have been a relatively non-event except that the little bimbo technician taking care of it couldn't keep her mouth shut and half way through decided that she would ask me a question that would send me into hysterics.... what could she possibly ask that would make you hysterical you ask?? Are you ready? ....
" So, are you here just checking to see if your cancer has spread further?"
Yup....this sent me into tears and her into apology mode. Anyway, my doctor says she had no business saying a thing! She's a technician that knows nothing and is not trained to diagnose. My Doctor was reporting her and although I feel bad that she may lose her job....well I feel bad for anyone that may have to suffer that kind of stupid question.
I don't have the results from my tests yet. Tomorrow morning I go to see my Doctor and we'll see what's going on. This is another thing that is making me crazy and another reason that I cry each night. The uncertainty that comes with all of this is very stressful, mix it in with everything else and I've decided that I need a planner. Kind of like a Wedding Planner...you know they come in, they see what you have to accomplish and they make it happen. My planner would be a "Fix my Life Planner".
Anyone want the job? Let me know and I'll send you the job description.
Keep Smiling Friends....cause it will make me feel better if at least someone is!
posted by Anonymous at 7:44 am
3 Comments:
I am up for it...natural planner right here...plus this gig is getting old.
Wow...I am not sure where to begin this comment. I am terriably sad that you are sad. I can confirm that this indeed is out of character for you. If there is absolutly anything I can do...incuding a coffee on my deck let me know. You are always welcome.
Whoever decided to peel Barbie out of her box that day of your mam, and shove her in a pair of scrubs should be shot. Who says such crap. I mean even if that were your situation (which it is not) who the hell wants to discuss it with her. Dumb Dumb.
I hope something bright comes your way this week. Call me for anything.
:-)
{{{{hugs}}}}
Okay, I know you can probably hear my voice when I say this but...seriously?? Who says that kind of thing to someone having an ultrasound???! Sometimes you have to wonder where these people get their qualifications from. I would have reacted in the exact same way and although none of us like to be vindictive, I really think she does deserve to be professionally punished (well, that didn't come out right!) in some way.
I'm really sorry that you are feeling down and out right now too but just remember that we are always there to listen if you ever just need to talk. I'm thinking that a "girls night out" might be in order..feel up for that? I think I can hear a bingo hall calling our names!!
Hang in there hon..things are going to get better!
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