End of Week 9 and July....

So turns out I'm more than half way through this 90 day "hell" (63days) and although it hasn't been all bad, i wouldn't recommend it for folks that lack willpower.   It's true I entered into this with high expectations that haven't really been met but I've only slipped once. I ate a raw mushroom on a Saturday night when i was home by myself.  I beat myself up about it for a couple of days and then honestly when I told my husband and he laughed till he cried... well, let's just say, I felt kind of silly!  If you know me you know I'm a rule follower in my old age.  Primarily this comes from years of bending the rules and nothing good coming from it and I really don't want to have to go through this again!  FUCK it's been hard and some days all I want to do is eat a damn loaded burger...or even a chicken Caesar salad or a carrot stick.

The posts on FB have been all about fun recipes lately and foods that I may never try because they look awesome but honestly I feel like probably not worth the calories.

Work has been keeping me busy and other things in my life have been somewhat frustrating but I've been good.  When I'm done the 90 days and get to taste real food i swear it will be the best 225 calories that I have ever tasted.  I'm certain of that!

This has been my other issue!  I need to share this...I went from having liquid in liquid out to nothing most of the time.  I think despite trying fibre stuff and then stool stopping that, then softener to reverse the fibre thing so stuff comes out I am quite literally full of 

I feel like I am going to hate the program and the scale tonight because my poop chute is FULL and weighing me down!

On a good note...non scale victories are BP Meds down even further, belt is now on the last notch for tightening and insulin intake is down even more.  

Anyway, like i said it's weigh in day and hopefully the number is good to give me strength during this upcoming week at the cottage (where I usually eat and drink till I waddle like a penguin!)

TTFN!